Refraction

 I have begun to view my recovery as just that, a recovery of a former version of myself. Sort of like meeting an old friend, continuing a long forgotten conversation with no elapse between visits. At least that's what I tell people in the meeting, hoping they can't tell I'm acutely intoxicated. How many of these fucking 24 hour tokens are they going to give me? I've lived more in the light and the shadow than any of them, who are they to tell me I can't have a foot in both. Uniformity, conformity, ubiquity, loss.